Interviews

First Name
KRISTIN
Age Group
26-30
Gender
Female
City
Brisbane
State
Other..
Zip Code
4053
Marital Status
Single
How many people share the living space with you?
None
What is your highest level of formal education?
Bachelor Degree
What race/ethnicity do you belong to?
White
What is the frequency of your visits to the health care provider?
Every 3 Months
Are you presently employed? If yes, what is your occupation?
YES. TRAINEE SOLICITOR.
Were you employed previously? If yes, when and where?
YES. CRANSTON MCEACHERN LAWYERS, BRISBANE
What conditions have you been diagnosed with? When? Where?
ANOREXIA NERVOSA
Have you ever been hospitalized? If yes, how many times? When was the last time that you were hospitalized?
YES. 13 TIMES. LAST TIME WAS SHORT STAY IN 2004. LAST STAY BEFORE THAT WAS 2002.
Please describe everything you know about your condition(s) and how you obtained such information?
I THINK I CAN SAY WITH REASONABLE CONFIDENCE THAT I KNOW ALL THERE IS TO KNOW ABOUT MY CONDITION EXCEPT HOW TO MAKE IT GO AWAY. I KNOW THE STATISTICS, INCIDENCE RATES, DEMOGRAPHICS AND MORTALITY RATES. THERE ARE NO CLEAR STATISTICS ON RECOVERY RATES HOWEVER I KNOW THAT THERE ARE SOME LUCKY PEOPLE WHO DO ACHIEVE COMPLETE RECOVERY. I KNOW ANOREXIA IS LIFE-THREATENING. I KNOW THAT IT RUINS YOUR LIFE EVEN IF IT DOESN'T ACTUALLY KILL YOU. ANOREXIA IS INSIDIOUS AND CRUEL, IT TRULY CONSUMES EVERY SINGLE MOLECULE OF YOUR BEING. IT IS CONNIVING, POWERFUL, PAINFUL AND IT FEELS HOPELESS. IT STEALS YOUR MOTIVATION FOR LIVING. IT TAINTS YOUR ENJOYMENT. IT TELLS YOU THAT YOU WOULD BE BETTER OFF DEAD AND SOMETIMES THAT IS HOW IT FEELS TOO. I 'OBTAINED' MOST OF THE INFORMATION THROUGH PERSONAL EXPERIENCE AND THROUGH THE PERSONAL EXPERIENCES OF FRIENDS WITH THE SAME CONDITION. I HAVE READ NOVELS, TEXTBOOKS, SHORT STORIES, JOURNAL ARTICLES, N/PAPER AND MAGAZINE ARTICLES, AUTO-BIOGRAPHIES, WEBSITES AND PERSONAL WRITINGS OF PEOPLE I PERSONALLY KNOW.
Please illustrate your life before, during, and after learning of your condition(s) and engaging in therapies, if any?
I THINK I REMEMBER MY LIFE BEFORE THE ILLNESS AS JUST BEING NORMAL AND ENJOYABLE. I HAD A LOT OF FRIENDS AND I DID WELL AT SCHOOL. MY HOME LIFE WAS NORMAL. MY PARENTS WERE, AND ARE, VERY SUPPORTIVE AND WILLING TO DO ANYTHING FOR ME. SOMETIMES THEY ARE QUITE RIGID IN THEIR WAYS OF THINKING AND HAVE BEEN OVERPROTECTIVE OF ME AT TIMES. BEFORE THE CONDITION, I HAD GOALS I WANTED TO ACHIEVE. I WAS ABLE TO ENJOY MY ACHIEVEMENTS. I TRUSTED EASILY, I WAS SOCIAL AND SPONTANEOUS. I HAVE ALWAYS LIKED TO PLEASE PEOPLE. I ALWAYS STROVE TO BE THE BEST AT SUBJECTS AT SCHOOL WHERE I LIKED THE TEACHER AS I FELT I WAS LETTING THEM DOWN OTHERWISE. DIET AND BODY-IMAGE WISE, I WAS COMPLETELY NORMAL. I HAVE NEVER BEEN OVERWEIGHT. I WAS CONFIDENT. I HAVE ALWAYS BEEN VERY SENSITIVE. THE CONDITION TAKES OVER YOUR LIFE UNTIL IT IS YOUR LIFE. YOU'RE INCAPABLE OF REALLY THINKING OF MUCH ELSE BESIDES CALORIES, FOOD, WEIGHT, EXERCISE, MIRRORS, DOCTORS AND MEALS. YOU FORGET HOW TO LIVE NORMALLY. YOU BECOME WILLING TO GO TO ANY LENGTHS TO DO WHAT IT TAKES TO LOSE WEIGHT. YOU LIE, YOU'RE MOODY, EVERYTHING FEELS HOPELESS AND DARK.
Please describe how you cope with your condition(s), if at all, and the effectiveness of each strategy?
I TALK ABOUT IT WHEN I FEEL SAFE AND THIS HELPS, EVEN IF IT ONLY HELPS FOR THE TIME OF THE CONVERSATION. MOST THERAPIES I HAVE TRIED WITH NO SUCCESS. I AM MAINTAINING MY WEIGHT BUT MY THOUGHTS OF WANTING TO LOSE WEIGHT ARE VERY STRONG AT THE MOMENT. LOSING WEIGHT ISN'T GENERALLY THAT EFFECTIVE BUT AT THE MOMENT IT FEELS LIKE I HAVE NO OTHER OPTION.
Does the state of your health impede in any way your everyday activities such as work, housework, studies and so on?
AT THE MOMENT I CAN DO MOST THINGS. WHEN I AM BAD, I CAN'T REALLY DO MUCH AT ALL, PHYSICALLY OR MENTALLY. EVERY DAY I KNOW MY THINKING IS AFFECTED BY THE CONDITION AS IS MY CONCENTRATION.
Does the state of your health impede in any way your social activities, such as inviting others to your residence, accepting invitations, going out with friends and so on?
YES, IT IS HARD TO BE SPONTANEOUS. MY ROUTINES CAN BECOME VERY RIGID AND IT FEELS CATASTROPHIC FOR THEM TO BE INTERRUPTED. I CAN ONLY GO OUT FOR MEALS WITH PEOPLE WHO KNOW I CAN'T EAT THE FOOD. I ALMOST ALWAYS WANT TO DECLINE INVITATIONS TO THINGS BUT I HAVE FORCED MYSELF TO DO THIS LESS.
How would you classify your daily interactions with people in general? (Comfortable, neutral, awkward, unpleasant) Please describe in detail.
I ACT CONFIDENTLY. I AM CONSCIOUS OF WANTING PEOPLE TO ALWAYS FEEL AT EASE WITH THEMSELVES. I ISOLATE MYSELF IF MY HEAD IS PARTICULARLY BAD. I FEEL PRESSURE TO ALWAYS BE THE OUTGOING ONE. I FEEL BAD WHEN OTHERS KNOW I FEEL BAD. I SPEND MOST OF MY INTERACTIONS WITH OTHERS TRYING TO PLEASE THEM EVEN IF I AM UNHAPPY OR UNSURE HOW TO DO THAT.
How do you envision your future?
I SEE MY FUTURE BEING JUST LIKE MY PRESENT. I CAN'T SEE AN END TO THE ILLNESS. I DON'T THINK I HAVE WHAT IT TAKES TO REALLY LEARN HOW TO LIVE NORMALLY WITHOUT THE CONDITION.
On the whole, I am satisfied with myself.
Strongly Disagree
At times I think I am no good at all.
Strongly Agree
I feel that I have a number of good qualities.
Disagree
I am able to do things as well as most other people.
Disagree
I feel I do not have much to be proud of.
Strongly Agree
I certainly feel useless at times.
Strongly Agree
I feel that I'm a person of worth, at least on an equal plane with others.
Strongly Disagree
I wish I could have more respect for myself.
Strongly Agree
All in all, I am inclined to feel that I am a failure.
Strongly Agree
I take a positive attitude toward myself.
Strongly Disagree
I can always manage to solve difficult problems if I try hard enough.
Disagree
If someone opposes me, I can find the ways and means to get what I want.
Disagree
I am certain that I can accomplish my goals.
Strongly Agree
I am confident that I could deal efficiently with unexpected events.
Agree
Thanks to my resourcefulness, I can handle unforeseen situations.
Agree
I can solve most problems if I invest the necessary effort.
Agree
I can remain calm when facing difficulties because I can rely on my coping abilities.
Agree
When I am confronted with a problem, I can find several solutions.
Agree
If I am in trouble, I can think of a good solution.
Agree
I can handle whatever comes my way.
Strongly Agree
With my illness experience, I feel I am:
More often tense
More often uncomfortable
More often in agony
Often distraught
Almost always discouraged
Almost always unsure
Almost always helpless
Almost always uncertain
My relationships help me feel I am:
Often worthless
Often distressed
More often distant
More often isolated
Often excluded
Often blamed
More often criticized
Towards those who are emotionally close to me, I feel I am:
Almost always forgiving
More often welcoming
More often accepting
Almost always encouraging
Equally trusting and distrusting
Almost always understanding
Almost always respectful
Universal beliefs and principles or a divine presence help me feel I am:
More often uninspired
Almost always troubled
Almost always judged
Almost always aimless
Almost always rejected
Almost always out-of-step
Almost always adrift
Towards universal beliefs and principles or a divine presence I feel I am:
Often listening
More often receptive
More often thankful
More often accepting
More often approaching
Often willing
More often connecting